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I kinda feel like I have been badly ignoring my own website. It has been a long time.
But … I guess my magikal stuff, these days have
been rather too few and far between, and the reasons, (if any at all,) might be personal and therefore…far too damn boring to share with others. It has been a very long and nasty interlude. Mostly… because of no other outside input but more my own negative processes.
…..I guess. I should be used to these black times by now, but I really don’t believe It’s beneficial for me to get ‘that’ accustomed.
I have inadvertently had these thoughts/brain stuff that I’m sure may be of (at least mild use/interest) to others of our ‘ilk’ … for the want of a better word….
But… I can’t help being convinced that actually….the most important information is almost always locked in the mind in any case.
I am never sure if it’s because the crux is always rather carefully hidden, or …that the crux is never the same from one soul to the next in any case. I will never know for sure, but I can’t kelp but believe that the magikal psyche is, was, and will ever be….far far more complicated than that.
What do you think?

 

A step in the rite direction?

So…. this is what’s happening to me recently? It will almost certainly be a total bore to most, (sorry about that folks ) because as far as I can tell as I am at this present ‘me’… I have done nothing whatsoever recently that I would even loosely class as magikal. However, as always….there have been what I can only describe as ‘ripples in my consciousness’ that insist on giving me the feeling that the magik is still here with me, and really never goes away, even if, (like now,) I don’t have the strength of mind to direct it/put it in place/have the want/need/intention etc, of anything that I will feel the will to make happen, …..and stuff like that.
Anyways, as far back as I can recall, even if my (apparent to me at least,) resident entity has always been there, (and I realise now that he always has, for as far back as I can actually recall.  (I guess I just didn’t have the imput to understand at that young age ) it was much, much later that I got my mind into contemplating what was always going on with me.

Thank you so much, @anton and @dana, for being there for me to find at the time when I needed you folks most, for some general reassurance/ feedback on whether I was going loopy etc.  😈

And also ….a thank you to our Phil Hines, who was also so very helpful to me with the very strange and unfamiliar feeling of possession.  Ron has never, ever pushed me into anything, but I gotta admit, (and yeah,  this is perhaps kinda weird, but I always did trust him totally.) and not with me ever being aware of being told/guided pushed at all.

That’s the thing about Ron, he is so very patient. When I am in a really receptive mood, I have been thrown about mentally, until I am totally battered, but it’s brill!  I love it, I learn so very much in that short receptive ‘window’….that when I have been weak and worried about stuff I need to do, maybe change, stop etc….(like I feel now,) it appears that I inadvertently put myself beyond his reach with his totally wonderful, (and mostly,) rather difficult lessons. So…. this is my dilemma it appears. The more I need his protection and guidance, the less he appears to be able to help me. Or….. maybe he really is, and is being very uncharacteristically subtle? I dunno, all I know is that my entity is here to protect me, teach me…. and somehow be part of who I am.